How's you's doing? (that's how they say hello here!)
Well family! Another week has gone by super fast here once again! I can't even begin how fast time has flown but I am still lovin every minute of it! We were super busy this week. Me and my companion were trying to use our time to the fullest and we ended up having a lot of success. We had a lot of lessons- especially with people we found near the temle site and some really good service opportunities that have allowed us to grow.
But overall, what I want to share about this week was some opportunities teaching I have had with some less active members.
I love going into those LA's homes and talking to them about the gospel. They always have so many concerns. I have found that each time this has been my most difficult lessons I have ever had. Unlike new investigators that we are teaching, most of these LA individuals have somewhere down the road had a testimony of the gospel and have felt the spirit. But for some reason they turn away. Sometimes the reasons vary but they usually are the same in some way because they have been offended by someone, or they don't really want to keep all the commandments. But even though all of that happens somewhere they still no the church is true but they are just unwilling to change. Which to me is one of the most saddenin things to hear as a missionary.
One of the ladies that we have been working with for a couple weeks and even went to church on the 4th to just try it out, but then when we met back up with her the following tuesday she expressed how she still didn't want to stop smoking and drinkin so she just doesn't feel like religion is for her even though she knows our message is true. It is just so confusing and stresses me out to the max. I want them to just feel the Saviors love so bad and how important our message is but it is something we can force on them. So we ended up deciding with this one individual that we weren't going to see her anymore cuz she didn't want us to. So I asked her if we could call the following week and see how she was doing.
As I did I ended up asking her if she had the opportunity to read the Book of Mormon. She said that she didn't and asked us to give her a specific chapter to read. When we called back to see if she read it she invited us to come over again so that we could discuss it with her. ?? Make up your mind woma! But for reals, I am so glad, because it makes me feel that somewhere she still wants to come back and hopefully through scripture study she can find the strength she needs.
And finally. Yesterday we had the opportunity to stop by a less active lady that I have been trying to catch home for sometime, and even trying to contact through facebook. It was probably the most powerful lesson I think I have ever had with a LA. She expressed some real deep concerns, and my heart literally broke for her. From everything she told us she had such a powerful testimony at one point in her life and it felt so different from all the other LA lessons I have ever had. My companion and I bore strong testimony of our message and that we are children of our Heavenly Father who loves us and that we know our message is true.
Through our experience with that lesson I have seen how great Satans influence is to try and have us turn away from everything that is good. Not only would he try and destroy families, or make people think it is okay to sin, but even greater he would have someone believe that God doesn't exist, that he doesn't love us, he isn't there for us or that we can't pray. It breaks my heart over and over again to think about what he does, but what is more powerful than that is the spirit of the Lord. I know that the spirit was there as we bore testimony and that is something that can not be denied. God is real. He loves us and though Satan will try to do everything he can to take that away from us we must build roots so deep that we can not be penitrated. Each day my testimony grows stronger, and as I read the scriptures my faith is only that much more confirmed of the truth and divinity of this message. I am so grateful to be out here and to share my testimony and experiences with others each day.
It is literally so good to be back you have no idea! I know that I worked hard before and that if I hadn't come back i would still have felt like I served the lord well, but being back now, I know that I just want to work that much harder even though sometimes i am super tired(part of the side effects) but im not going to stop. I hope to bear my testimony to everyone I have an opportunity to meet and to be an influence to change generations of lives!
Family I love you. This church is true. I pray for you all and I hope you are finding happiness wherever you may be.
Love Sister Beames
Btw. It is eggnog time! :) :) happy holidays!
Peace